I had my concerns and when I last talked to Doug he had me convinced that he would be okay. I felt in my heart he was already telling me something that he needed to tell me, something I needed to hear but wouldn't accept. Something he just had to and needed to say to someone else also. My last conversation with him was really really good we talked about the joys that life brings, what it means to share with others.. it was about staying positive and doing the hard things the things that had to be done so we all make a difference. Friends, family the things that really matter, loved ones. He refused to accept giving up, thats who he has always been a real hero. My friend.

Im left confused and sad. Im really not okay at all, and I'm really not gonna be ok from this probably for a long while. Will miss not having Longshanks with us, I hope hes with us in spirit watching us kick ass.