I definitely relate, however I noticed a significant difference between playing alone in noobville and when you hook up with your brothers and sisters of KGB, I would suggest if you didn't experience guild play to give it another shot.

I am Wrath, I am Steel, I am the Mercy of Angels.
mors est merces mea – death is my reward
morte in vitam non habet tenaci - Death has no grip on Life.
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